The lone visionary

When it comes to insults and pain, I’ve had enough to know that there are much better things to do in life than to subject yourself to them, tolerate them unnecessarily or to even inflict such on another human being. I’ve had people insult me in varying degrees of intensity and I admit to being hurt by them initially. That was before I realized the real meaning of their insults.

By choosing to insult me, they revealed that they were neither receptive enough to understand me nor courageous enough to work on their own self-esteem issues. I ended up feeling low levels of pity for them and it helped me put their insults behind me and not take them to heart.

Sometimes all you need to make sense of things is to just be alone. I truly was alone, as no one understood me. Having no one to relate to is a loneliness of great pain; you can’t connect with the people around you and any interactions you have further prove that point.

The upside is that the loneliness is my strength. I’m less likely to be deterred by other people’s opinions and influence when I know that I am alone in my path of life. This makes the most sense when I view it in light of following my dreams. My ambitions have always created a significant difference of opinion between the people in my life and I.

Then again, when it comes to following a vision, the owner is usually alone, as it is very rare for two people to pursue the same version of a vision. It doesn’t always have to be like this, but it is what it is. I’ll be the lone visionary, striving to be the best that I can be; lone until I find a woman who understands me that is.