I don't believe in love

Love yourself, you truly deserve it

Now I realize,
Where the problem lies.
Where I went wrong,
It all came to me just now; so strong.
In fact, it’s so rich that it deserves to be a song.
And I felt like I was looking for this answer for so long.
Now my mind is at rest; just where it belongs.

My heart is valuable.
It connects me to who I truly am.
All my dreams and wishes.
What I want and what I don’t want,
What I love and what I hate.
Letting someone into it brings me to the main point of my debate.

Why should I let someone into such a crucial place?
Attach myself to her and give up something she won’t be able to replace?
Let her gain access to my deepest desires.
Let her rule over it and give her whatever she requires.

My experience teaches me that no one else can be trusted with your heart.
And only I can be trusted fully enough with that.
There’s nothing worse than losing yourself in a heartbreak.
You’ll end up acting in opposition to your own will, and it might take you a while to get back.

Because of two disappointments I recently experienced;
I now know what matters most.
I had to consult myself countless times over,
To get back from where I was lost.

Now I know what I want, and I know what I love.
And that’s me, my well-being and my passions.
Without them, I am nothing.
And life truly isn’t worth living.

Like a baby being weaned off milk; it was all for my own good.
I had to experience this pain so that I could grow, and eat the real food.

“Welcome to the real world,” you inadvertently said to me.
And I was slow to catch on to that fact, it is clear to see.
But I have now; I’ve gained clarity.
I’ve learnt the lesson, and I’m as strong as can be.